LIFE

Its been three months n half that I am living at Singapore since end of June. Im now being apart from my family and Im missing them so much. There`s a lot of things that makes me feeling down and sad. I feel like nobodys there for me and problems keep troubling me almost everyday. I dont have that sense of belonging. I have problem in my studies, my future, family, and.. love. Theres a lot of problem and I just wanna give up in life. But I know I shouldnt. I should be strong and keep living. I cried almost every night seeking help from Allah. I know I make a lot of mistakes and sins that uncountable. I ask for your FORGIVENESS oh Allah. Please guide me to the right path and please protect me from harm and danger. I just need space for me myself. One day I hope I have a job, a husband, a family and I want to take care of my mom as she is the only one I have. I dont care if I dont have nobody in this world, as long as I have Allah and my mother. Thats all I need. btw, theres a latest video of me doing ASL of one of my fav songs which is HERO by Mariah Carey. You can search it on Youtube or Ill just paste the video here. This song somehow, motivates me to never give up and please understand the lyric. Hope you enjoy. Assalamualaikum,

National University of Singapore (NUS)- 1 semester

Assalamualaikum guys, dah sebulan 27 hari (58 hari) aku kat Singapore!! Alhamdulillah. 

Jadi objektif post kali ni aku nak share mengenai:-

1) Pengalaman kat NUS/Singapore

- Volunteer work

- TF LEaRN programme

2) My Hostel at Residential College 4 (RC4)

3) Kelas and modules aku ambil kat NUS

Alhamdulillah at 29 July 2015 I already arrived at Singapore. It`s took 4-5 hours from Kuala Lumpur to Singapore. Thanks to my family who sent me here and Iam really excited to be here as TF LEaRN-er programme and a bit afraid of my bad English. haha. So correct me if I do some grammar mistakes. It is ok we learn from mistake right. At first my expectation here at NUS really high, as I know that NUS is one of the TOP UNIVERSITY IN THE WORLD. I cannot imagine I am here as an exchange student for one semester. What can I say to you guys, they are really really really hard-working like there is no tomorrow. For me it is good to put your studies first but it is not good if you don`t have social life. But some of them "work hard, play hard", they good at both! haha. When I came here I thought it will be my HONEYMOON year. 1month here I still though it is my honeymoon year until a week before recess week begin. Now my recess week begin and I am now realize it is already 1 month I have been here! like OMG what did I do along this time from 1 st day I come until now. I didn`t study hard, I play too much and waste my time with something else instead of study. Is it good to think like this? or, my brain is getting infected with "NUS" lifestyle (24 hours study, if don`t u will feel bad). I should really need to plan something. On recess week I did do some volunteer work at Science Centre at Jurong East. So far I did finished 10 hours of volunteer work. To be honest, we need to complete 15 hours volunteer work. haha. That is why im doing a volunteer work. LOL. Eh, but I also that type of person who loves volunteer work okehh! 1st day as a volunteer at Science centre I conducted an activities such as "fingerprint dusting" and also "balancing butterfly". Later I will explain it to you ok, and the other day I`m doing an admin work like I need to key in the data from the form into excel. So both I already complete 10 hours of volunteer work. I learned something new like how to "attract" kids to do your activities, how to explain to them on what is happening, how to cheer them up like give them to bring back the butterfly to home and show it to your friends your magic trick and also I learn to practice speak simple word Chinese that I had learned at NUS to the parents too! Like, xiexie-bukeqi, zaijian, ni hao etc.

Exam Fever

Assalamualaikum and Hi!
Wow seriously lama aku tak update blog ni. Like seriously. It`s been a looooooooooooooong time. Hahaha. So now aku dah Tahun ke 2, sem ke 2 di UKM still in the same course (fighthing!). Yah, banyak perkara yang aku dah lalui sepanjang tempoh aku tak update blog ni. But hey good news, next sem aku would be going to Singapore for 1 sem (Aug-Dec 2015). Yah, Im still shocked. First time bila dapat tahu from emai yang NUS (National University of Singapore) e-mailed me cakap congrats for been awarded with TEMASEK LEADESHIP Programme I was very happy and I didn`t expecting for that. Ya Allah I never dream about it. Sebab masa nak isi application tu banyak benda kena isi itu ini and essays. This post I would like to say THANK YOU to my beloved family especially to my only mother for ur prayers, to my sister Mazuin" you helped me a lot especially in essays writing". You are SUPERB! For my sister Fatin and my brother in law Abg Muaz for your guidence and support. Thank You! To my Sayang Zulhaqqim, thanks for always be there through thick and thin. Helped me to send the application form bila bekalan electricity kat college putus. PHEW! Thanks babe. <3 nbsp="" p="">
BUT...

I asked my Lord, is this my journey? Am I doing a right thing? Lord help me! I need to extend my study which 4 years + 1sem. and I`m gonna facing many problem after Im coming back to Malaysia. I asked a few lecturers about my problem, they encouraged me and told that it was okay if you extend your study for your own good. I take that at positive side. I would be missing my friend, my abang sayang. Yelah walaupun sometimes aku suka buat silly jokes. Contoh macam, Oh! nanti I balik dari oversea I xnak la makan nasi, eww sambal belacan? apa tu?? hahaha ! saja suka menyakat. He know me very well. Eventhough kami kuat argue but then we never hated too much! It have been 1 yearalmost 5 months together. I hope your will be my DESTINY :)

TET!!.. Next!

Okay! Sudah-sudah sedih, jiwang and semua duniawi ituhhhh. Kembali kepada EXAM FEVER. what WHAT! Like-seriously-UKM-tak-ada-studyweek?! what WHAATTTTTTTT??? Cool gila UKM buat student die rasa macam nak huru hara with all presentations, assignments x100. Ni pun tengah siapkan tugasan Prof Manisah. P/S doakan Prof Manisah getting better from Dengue. She look firm, but I know deeply in her heart she was kind hearted because she want us to be somebody. I dont know, why suddenly I feeling sad right now. *currently lisning to Spotify (Peaceful Piano Album`s).

Alright, seems tomorrow I got poster presentation about student`s learning styles. So I need to have a rest now. Pepol pelis peray fo my sukses yokei! I love you. Forgive my mistakes, may Allah grant us Jannah. Ameeen! See you there! Assalamualaikum... xoxo